“Until one has loved an animal, a part of one’s soul remains unawakened.” — Anatole France
From one pet owner to another, we understand the intense pain and emptiness that occurs after this loss. There is no correct way to grieve and work through this process, as everyone walks down a different journey with a pet. I put my beloved toy poodle, Matisse, to rest on June 7, 2018, and it was the most hardest and painful decision I've ever made. For the past few months, her hacking cough got worse. Her appetite has gone down and her hair has started to fall off and the allergies, the side effects from the insulin has taken its toll and has been unbearably itchy. She was miserable but a damn fighter! A survivor. Her vet was truly amazed that she lived two years after her cancer diagnosis and asked me what special sauce I've been giving my fur girl, that prolonged her life. It was true love and non-stop care 24/7 and just never giving up on my baby, that made it all possible. It got to the point where I was so selfish, so hopeful that she may live a few more years. But there were clear signs that her health was deteriorating. The hardest part was seeing her lifeless body. I was so heartbroken. My wailing echoed the whole room. The silence in the background, deafening. As I cried my heart out, it's as if, the whole world stood still.
The death of a pet can be a truly traumatic experience and create a large void in our hearts and lives—comparable to losing a close family member or friend. Why? Because they are a part of our family. In this 11 long, wonderful, joyous years of having Matisse in my life, I realized that a pet is truly a gift that changed my life and brought me monumental happiness and gratitude. Matisse taught me responsibility, patience, kindness, discipline, playfulness and, most importantly, unconditional love.
I miss you so much my darling baby, Matisse. You will remain in my heart forever. I love you.